“You were born to win, but to be a winner, you must plan to win, prepare to win, and expect to win.” – Zig Ziglar
Today is a new year. Year of the Tiger. The tiger’s motto is “I win”. How appropriate that Year of the Edgar should continue this year. You heard right. This is not JUST a one-trick pony.
I have a confession to make. 2009 was an important year for myself. It is the year that you guys saved my life, in a way. Let’s go back to 2008 and before. I was a depressed individual. It was severe. I was unhappy, and lonely. I was also tired of being this way. I had been for years. No one really knew this, my close friends even. Some people suspected it, like my sisters, but I would push it away and try not to think of it.
Come December 2008. I was secretly filming my extra work with The Guild, and I met Ryon Day. I also had a very nice conversation with Felicia Day and Kim Evey. I mean, I had resolved to do something about this but probably would have just coasted in 2009 like every year. Something these people said, and my sisters, and other friends, it just flipped a switch. I had an epiphany. I literally stated, “I just can’t take it, next year will be my year. Year of the Edgar.” I added THE because some of the guildie fans for whatever reason started calling me “the Edgar” within the community site. I bought the domain and started working on the design/finding a theme. A guildie created the logo using an image another guildie created of me called “super Edgar”. Check my About page for this.
Basically, 2009 was about fixing myself mentally. Through your support, and my want to change, I managed to successfully stop being sad and depressed. It truly worked! This is why I bought so many bobble heads. So many people thought I was crazy to do this. What I was doing was giving myself the confidence boost I so needed. I have one at work, at home, and I carry a box of them in my car. Wherever I go, if I need it, I can look at myself giving me a thumbs up. I also wanted the ability to send them off to people so they could also be reassured by me and my thumbs up. I definitely did not have the money to do this, but I went with it anyway. Sure, you could spend thousands like I did, but I think and hope you can achieve the same thing I did with just one of my own bobble heads.
There were minor setbacks too, finding out I had diabetes in Feb was a difficult blow, then later in the year there was a tragic death in the family, but I managed to deal with it all and managed myself. Things happen for a reason, everyone says this, but when I think about it, both of these events would have devastated me even worse had they happened before last year. Yet, they happened last year and not before.
Some things I took away was, joining a support group and wanting to do it is extremely refreshing. I go to a monthly diabetes group/class and it is very much a therapy session. I don’t think I need it, but I still go each and every month. Even if you don’t think you need it, do it. Participate. It does wonders. Another thing I learned was to be honest to yourself and to others about how you feel. If you are sad, there’s nothing wrong with it. If I continued suppressing it, I would never get out of that rut. Seek support, from friends, family, or even strangers. I lean on my twitter friends all the time and get encouragement from them.
It is now 2010. Chinese New Year. “I win.” What is on the agenda? Actual weight loss. I made mistakes last year and my cholesterol suffered. By the end of this year I will have lost two dress sizes at minimum. At minimum. I will also do more video this year. I wanted to last year, but school and work and friends kept me very busy. I will graduate in a few months, which has been a major goal. I will start taking a language class this year and I also hope to take a dance class.
I want to prove to you that living positively, even through adversity, is the way to go. It is a good way to live. All of this is for me, sure, but I also want to help out everyone else that I can. So many people in my life are not happy with their current situation, through me I want them to know that it isn’t as bad as they think. My life’s anthem is “Lean on Me” because I enjoy helping others. I know of a few people working towards adopting a YotE attitude and I applaud them. They are the beginning of a very good thing.
There is one more goal for me this year. I will probably not talk too much about it, because it isn’t something I will be too focused on. Love. I won’t delve too much into this, but I’ve had an interesting love life in the past and hope for some normalcy. Again, I won’t be talking about it, but I will be keeping my eyes open. I’m a good man and I am looking for a good woman. Someone positive like me.
So I challenge you to make 2010 your year. Wake up every day and smile. First thing you do. Think of a reason to do it and do it. Try to better yourself by doing things for yourself. Reach for the stars and think big. Be confident. Someone pointed me to this article on how people are afraid to think big and how you really should think big. Don’t be afraid to fail either, my take on this is learn from your mistakes and keep trying. Another friend showed me an article on being better than yesterday. How can you make today better than yesterday?
Lofty challenge, but I only challenge because it is what I am doing. Do this with me. Year of the Tiger is your year and it is my year.
This year I will be 30. This year I win.